I salute you and the joy you have for I too once had the power to give
Heart’s gone cold? so I’ve been told, more for revenge?
No mostly to avenge
The honour I once had
So if you see me now in a different light,
Squeeze tight and don’t let go
‘Cause I can’t lose myself anymore.
One must hold their values and not shake
In any situation, despite the temptation to conform
And transform into something they accept
So weather that storm and make no mistake
There’s a thin line between daydreaming and being awake
Returning home,
I lie down and shut my eyes
Hoping for the morning I become something new
A day where I leave my house with no disguise
And recognized by only a few
I’ve been lost in a place wishing to be found
So I’d throw myself in the rising tide just so I wouldn’t drown
In my own thoughts that make me consider temporary death
Come back with another soul, dying to hold on that last breath
Hoping to get people thinking, whether I’m one of them or not
Moving quicker than sound but getting stuck in the same spot
Waving bye to the light that blessed me for 15 seconds, I reckon
It’s all over for me; grips on my wrists leave me powerless
And hungry for more, gone back to knock on the devil’s door
It opens, greeting me with a pen and portrait of myself
Waiting for me to sign my soul away to have nothing left
I loaned it with interest, leaving it all when I lose all interest
Since half my heart holds reason, through the changing seasons
I only listen to half of people’s flattery, none to those who laugh at me
Thanks to those who got the best of me, and since I’m on my second chance
I’m keeping the rest of me, with my hands in my pocket, and the key in my door,
I lock it, and check to make sure I didn’t leave my past behind
This life is mine, so I look forward with shivers down my spine
Walk through the frozen air and I freeze through time
Having the whole world watch me in that moment
I commit that crime
A clean record in my mind but walking with hands painted red
I’ve waited long enough for my chance so all the rest wait in line
I push, dig deep inside me, and close my eyes
Eyelids pressing down harder so my tears don’t dry
I quickly begin to run, pushing those that stand ahead
My heart is hanging on a thin thread
So I don’t think it can handle much more
But I’m scared of what happens when it loses its place
God bless me to finish first in this drowning chase
The tide is rising once more, but I’m ready for the water
My heart is lost but inside me, it’s burning with fire
So it never gets tired, and keeps me awake
This life took my once, so I learned from that mistake
And I smile, laughing at all that I’ve ever known
The day of my birth, years later watching how much I’ve grown
Fists clenched tight, stand up right, knowing I’m never alone
Coming Back
Representing an entire city with the words in my mouth
If you knew me before, tell me what I’m about
I question an identity and I question an entire life
From beginning to end, through day and night
Thoughts take up most of my day; don’t have much time for talking
Even when I’m sitting still, I feel as if I’m walking
With all eyes on me, I walk with an attitude to kill
My life is filling up my photo album but I never stay still
Pictures come out blurry because my mind is always in a hurry
To get to a place I’ve never been before
Every step I take puts cracks in the floor
Emphasis on every word to step on any soul
I know I’m a model, so I can fit any role
Walk with my head held high and memories in my mind
I chose to stay cold.
Running Away
Imagery haunts me, leaving me to think
A new thought is born faster than I blink
I shut my eyes for a few more seconds then open
And I begin to see images drawn on my ceiling
Close my eyes once more and I start believing,
I push the thought away and shut my eyes
Eyelids pressed down harder so my tears won’t dry
The thoughts in my head my memory chose to keep
Dreams during the day won’t let me sleep
My mind has gone back to the first square
So I close my eyes forever for it is the truth I cannot bare
